Wednesday, 19 August 2009

An answer at last

I have two pieces of good news tonight - first, the consultant is still happy to go ahead with the treatment next month. He said my AMH levels were disappointing, but not totally unexpected, and as he's prescribing the maximum dose of drugs for me anyway, we might as well give it a go.

And second, the nurse who is our main contact at the clinic really cares about the people in her care.

This morning she said she'd ring back at some stage this afternoon, but couldn't promise when - Wednesday is their busiest day, and they have appointments right up until 8 pm. She had warned me she might not have a chance to ring before about 7:30.

7:30 came and went, and I was on tenterhooks all afternoon, finding it harder and harder to concentrate on anything other than willing the phone to ring. When poor DH got home from work, he asked if I'd heard anything and I burst into tears - as I said to him, he's probably going to have to get used to that over the next few weeks.

8:00 also came and went, and I resigned myself to the fact that I would probably have to try to phone from the office tomorrow, in between my teaching - not ideal, especially if the news wasn't good.

At 8:45, the phone rang - and it was the wonderful wonderful nurse. She said it had been a busy day, and she had got halfway home and then remembered that she hadn't rung me - so she'd turned round and driven all the way back to the clinic to make the call. I thanked her profusely and she said, "Well, I know it's all you can think about at the moment, so I couldn't make you wait."

I'm so grateful that we're going to get the chance to have a go at this, even though I know the odds are stacked against us. And even more than that, I'm hugely grateful that we have such a caring person looking after us. I'm also grateful that poor old DH was so lovely when I got off the phone and promptly burst into tears all over again. It's definitely going to be a hard journey, but I couldn't haven't better companions along the road (and that includes you, Jeannie).


  1. Oh, you made me cry too!! I wish I was there in a more physical form!!! Wonderful news that you're getting to have a go, and something concrete now to focus on and pray about - and we will! My advice for the rest of this month and into next would be to try and rest as much as possible, eat healthy, nourishing things and take good care of yourself (and DH. And he can take care of you too, as he so obviously is doing, bless him). I doubt it has any scientific merit at all in the TTC process, but I believe feeling cared for and rested has a huge psychological impact. Thinking of you!!! XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

  2. My body is a temple - except that I would like to have an alcoholic beverage or two on my birthday... xxx

  3. Champagne! Your mother keeps telling me it's good for everything (including breastfeeding!) so lets make good use of a possible old wives tale :)

    PS Don't you DARE tell your mother I called her an old wife, mind :D