Wednesday, 25 November 2009

At the starting gates

Thank you so much for all your good luck messages - they really meant a lot. Also, before I get started on my news, CONGRATULATIONS to Sonja, who got her BFP yesterday. I'm so chuffed for her - she has been so supportive to me while going through the most horrible experience in her first IVF cycle, and I couldn't be more pleased that her second cycle has been so successful. And of course, it also gives me hope that a BFP is possible even without perfect-looking embryos.

I went down to the hospital with some trepidation this morning, as I've had some twinges in my left ovary and was afraid there might be another cyst. I couldn't stand the thought of having to wait until after Christmas, especially as I would have been in exactly the same position that I was in when I had the cyst in September, where the lost time was the time that would have fitted in perfectly with work and once my body was ready to co-operate, work would have kicked off again.

Anyway, Nurse Perfect said my lining was coming away nicely and both ovaries were looking good. She could see the beginnings of two or three follicles on the left ovary, and although the right ovary was looking quieter, it also had the possible beginnings of a couple of follicles.

Technically, they count today as CD2, so she told me to start my injections tomorrow. I then picked up my SIX boxes of Gonal-F (a snip at £110 a box - I hope my family don't expect any Christmas presents) and set up my monitoring appointments - the first one will be on Saturday morning.

So now I need to ring my acupuncturist and see if I can get some appointments set up with him, and then tonight DH and I need to fill in all the forms again. There seems to be a new HFEA form since October, so that'll be a bit of excitement for us...

I still don't know how I feel about this cycle. I'm approaching it very differently - for a start, I haven't yet told my family (apart from one SIL who reads this blog - hi Jeannie!) that we're going ahead, and if I do, it'll probably only be one of my sisters and my parents that I tell. I'm preparing for failure already, and since if we get that far, my official test day is likely to be in Christmas week, I don't want to put a downer on everybody's Christmas.

My colleagues will probably know, as egg collection is likely to be the day of our department Christmas lunch, and they'll want to know why I'm missing it. And some of the neighbours might know, because we need them to witness our signatures on the HFEA forms. But they're not emotionally invested in this the way my family and close friends are, so a BFN for us in Christmas week won't impinge on any of their Christmas celebrations.

I also intend to keep as busy as possible (within reason) and give myself less time to dwell on what's happening. I know what to expect at each stage of the process, so I'll try to stay away from Google and rely on my memory of what I've already read and experienced for myself. And it's pretty easy to keep busy in the run-up to Christmas, so hopefully I won't get as obsessed as I did last time - I don't know if that had any effect on the result, but it certainly affected the emotional impact it had on me and contributed to the total meltdown I had and the difficulty I had picking myself up again afterwards.

So, bring on those horror-moans and let's get started!


  1. So glad you're cyst-free and your lining looks good! Hoping and praying this is THE cycle...second times a charm!

  2. First of all, thank you so much for your congratulations. It means a lot. You have been here for me through so much, and I can't thank you for all the advice you've given me. I truly do believe that acupuncture and the hypnotherapy CD helped me a lot. Both of these things calmed me down so much -- I am typically such a pessimist and bundle of nerves, so anything to make me relax is huge. Also I followed your suggestions of drinking a lot of water and drinking milk (I opted for whole milk because I read that it is best for helping out egg quality).

    One suggestion I'd offer you would be the bee pollen/royal jelly. I got a grade 4 embryo this time around instead of a grade 3. It could be luck, or one or all of the things I tried. But it's just a thought.

    I am glad to hear everything is going well lining-wise and ovaries-wise. Good luck with your injections!! Fingers and toes crossed for beautiful embies soon!

  3. Good news right at the start is always good. The positive side: if it works, you'll be getting the best Christmas present ever. :)

  4. Thinking of you... didn't get to phone back yesterday and I know you're working today! Was out all afternoon with an old friend and then had people for dinner as I got home, but I was thinking of you and so glad to hear all is going ahead!!!! Praying hard for all the stages to go well and for success honey XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

  5. Oh so pleased your lining is looking great and cyst free! You'll be a gonalF induced lunatic like me in no time!!!!
    Thanks for your supportive words, I will be thinking of you during the next few days while i'm away and if I don't get a chance to comment then just know i'm there in spirit. GOOD LUCK