Thursday, 17 December 2009

Obsession

So far, I've managed not to crack and test early, and now I only have one more day to wait.

The spotting slowed down considerably after I posted on Tuesday morning, and yesterday I had hardly any until the evening. I veer almost by the minute between total despair and thinking that there is some hope after all, and it's that bit of hope that makes it easier not to test - because I'm terrified of testing and getting a BFN. I'd like to spend another 24 hours living in my little dreamworld where a BFP remains a possibility, however remote.

In the meantime, I got quite a good demonstration yesterday evening of my level of subconscious obsession. I had written some notes on Business Property Relief for work, and as I proof-read them afterwards, I realised that several times instead of 'BPR', my fingers had automatically typed 'BFP'. Good job I checked before sending the stuff to print...

4 comments:

  1. Good luck tomorrow, I've got my fingers tightly crossed!

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  2. oh ldom when I read yourpost I thought well sheknows her body best I wont patronise her with "you justnever know" but nowim excited again! lets hope you get the best christmas prezzie ever!

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  3. Still thinking of you constantly and praying hard for a miracle ...

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  4. Good luck testing in the morning! Hoping it's your lucky Friday. :)

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