Sunday, 1 August 2010

What a wimp!

We had a bit of stress getting sorted for today, as relatively late last night we discovered that all today's trains into London from where we are had been cancelled, and we couldn't get a hotel room in central London at short notice for less than the price of a small kingdom. So we decided to hope for the best that I wouldn't be sedated and drive all the way in.

The staff at XXXX clinic were as lovely as they always were, and I had a good chat in the waiting-room with someone I'd been chatting to regularly while we were going in for daily bloods - she was in for egg collection today.

There were three egg collections and a hysteroscopy before me, then I had the cannula inserted just in case and the embryologist came to see me. She said Rucksack was at seven cells and was looking beautiful. The consultant said he would prefer me to be awake for the transfer, but offered me the option of being sedated straight away, so I said I'd have a go at being awake.

Another sign of how tailored the treatment is at XXXX clinic is that they map everything out when they do the hysteroscopies, and on the basis of what they know of your individual anatomy they decide how full they want your bladder for transfer. I was lucky - they wanted my bladder empty.
It was much more relaxed in the theatre than it ever was at the other clinic - Mr No Nonsense liked to do his transfers in absolute strict silence, whereas everyone was joking and trying to put me at my ease this time. Without the experience of my last two transfers, I'm sure I'd have been absolutely fine.

The consultant did a quick t/v scan before he started, and I took slow, deep breaths and concentrated on trying to relax. They don't use ultrasound during the actual transfer, as they don't want any distortion in the shape of the uterus caused by the scanner thing pressing down on your stomach.

Then he said he was ready to get started, and I heard the clink of the metal instruments on the tray and just thought, "I can't do this". I totally panicked and begged them to put me to sleep - which they instantly agreed to, and the lovely anaesthetist came in and sent me off. Oh, the blessed relief!

I was very apologetic afterwards about having been such a wimp - but on the plus side, I got a good half hour to an hour lying absolutely still after my transfer, and I feel quite positive about the effect that might have.

I have a whole raft of new medications to take - they tested my progesterone level and have taken me off the Cyclogest and treated me to the dreaded PIO injections instead. I'll tell you more about my new drug regime tomorrow... I suggested to the embryologist that they were just trying to take my mind off the two week wait by making me spend the whole time counting down to the next dose of medication, and she didn't disagree!

I have to go back for my beta test on Friday 13th - lucky for some, I hope. And in the meantime, I'll just relax and enjoy being PUPO.


  1. So glad you left feeling positive! I think of 13 as my lucky number and I always treat a Friday the 13th it's like a special holiday. Hey - that just made me realize, Friday the 13th will be right around ovulation for me this cycle. I'm gonna plan for it being my lucky day. Here's hoping it works the same for you!

  2. High-five for being PUPO and keeping my fingers crossed for a very lucky Friday the 13th!!

  3. So excited for you! PUPO again! Been thinking of you all day, and will continue to do so. And some do consider Friday the 13th lucky (13 is one of my favorite numbers as well), so I'm thinking positive. :)

  4. I'm so excited you're PUPO! Rucksack sounds beautiful, too. I'm crossing all my fingers and toes and praying hard!!! *hugs*

  5. Good luck!!!!!

  6. Friday 13th has always been a lucky day for the Wallaces - Dad was born on the 13th :) People at school used to think I was weird for calling it a lucky day *posts my share of luck over to you* Sending so much love!!! XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

  7. Best of luck with your 2ww - here's hoping it flies by in the new medication regime and you see your BFP at the end.